fisher

It's been awhile since I have updated y'all on Fisher and his progress. So much has happened in the few short months and it is just crazy that the school year is more than half-way done!

Last week we had parent/teacher conferences and we quickly discussed the great progress Fisher has made. I can't even put into words or even begin to tell you how far Fisher has come along. I mean, this kid is a whole different kid from the beginning of the school year in terms of language skills and social skills and the progress he is making is just the greatest blessing. He is almost to where he needs to be language wise and I am so so grateful for this.

We started to discuss our plans and ideas for what we want in terms of schooling for Fisher next year. He has the options of going to our neighborhood school's kindergarten class with help of aids, going to a special school that is catered to just kids with autism spectrum disorder, or hold him back one more year so that he can continue to work on his social skills. Since Fisher's first diagnosis at age two, our main goal was to get him mainstreamed and to attend a neo-typical class and now I can hardly believe that in just a few months that is where he will be.

And I am absolutely terrified.

Don't get me wrong, I am still so happy and so proud of Fisher and I totally think that this is the best thing for him, but I am still scared. I am scared how the other kids are going to react and treat him. I am scared if he will have friends or if he will enjoy it. I know that the change alone is going to be so hard for him, but I have to let him grow up and I can't always protect him. 

But I am still so scared.

In the meeting I broke down in tears.

I think I surprised everyone when I did, but I just want to protect him from everything and I know I can't. I love his teachers and his aids and the principal at his school already. I want them to be is teachers and aids forever... I just want it to be easy for him. 

I know we still have a very LONG road ahead of us and him going to kindergarten is just the beginning of many hard changes for both of us, but I don't think I will ever be completely ready.  But I am still so very excited for him too, because I know he is going to do great and awesome and continue to grow and shine.

Our little guy has come so far. His social skills have grown so much. He has good friends at his school and he plays so well with Chase and Sabrina at home. He loves to put on dance shows for us on the fireplace and loves to make up songs about washing machines. Fisher also loves to take care of Oliver and cuddle with him in the morning before school. He truly has the sweetest soul.

I am so so proud of him and so blessed to be his mother. He teaches me so much and I can't express how much I love him.